Sometime before 2020 for sure. I remember looking around and saw vast city wide change. That epiphany. That, "where was I" notion. More car traffic. More crowded buses. Massive holes in the ground with cranes overlooking the skyline. Everywhere. I didn't quite realize this expansion PDX was going through til we were likely at least a good year into the boom. Then bam. I didn't quite realize why I started getting annoyed with whatever was happening to PTown. But I know for sure this was the start of my "agoraphobia." We all have issues of some sort. Let's face it. Some use it, abuse it, then take advantage of it to where it's watered down. The more someone says this is how they are and what condition they have, it just becomes less of what is being claimed. When someone is something, nothing needs to be proven because they just are. This is also not to make light of these issues too, like OCD or ADD, just as simple examples. I started realizing, people suck. People are greedy, selfish, and unkind. I started feeling really guarded in public. Then add sounds, loud cars, bikes, and crashing concrete and urban noise. I USED to like to go on walks. Theres always a lingerer somewhere, then everywhere, and I couldn't tell who was a normal, cool person versus some annoying lingerer. The lingerers were giving bad names to cool nice people til everyone just became someone I was wary of. Then the Pandemic. Then Protest uprisings, Regimes and Hate. Now, where do I go from here? I used to be nice now I'm probably the asshole.